one step closer to your heart,
two more steps and i’ll fall apart….
but today could change it all,
cause tonight we’ll have to fall
all those promises i never really ment
all the “i love you’s” i couldn’t say
maybe it was ment to be this way
today (x2) tonight.
i’ll end this before it eats me alive
i’ll save myself from this fight
i’m not willing
to make such a sacrifice,
that could take away everything i worked so hard for
i hope you understand…
i hope you live to be strong
cause i’m better off alone…
better off alone (x2)
i dont wanna hurt you
but i cant hurt myself.
i’ll walk away
i’ll be okay
i had this weird ass dream were brad and one of my friends went missing…and they came back with b-day things for me o.o not the point…well i was all over brad who by the way didnt look like brad at all… o.o but thats what i was calling him so yeah…he had..black hair…he was all “emo?” yeah thats how he looked..and no glasses….and then hannah and jess came and jess was all WTF! and i totally got busted o.o wth… o.o i still have to choose though…brad…or jess…? oh i dont know D= help? ok so..brad has glasses..and he’s tall..but he can make me laugh… jess is…funny but he cant spell…but thats okay neither can i :D…and he give sme butterflies in my tummy D= and he’s so sweet..and loving what do you think???
i have ALOT of feckin kids…i dont know half there names but i can name my favorites!!
Billy. the end. xD
wow so off topic.. <.< oh you know your totally jealous…x] and soon..i wil be single…no attachments..YAY!!!!!!!! mhm juliar’s getting a divorce…. wow..what are we talking about again?…oh yeah…erm..i just realized that that…uhm…i’m off topic again…yeah…i also just realized..your still reading this crap, wow…you really have no life (no offence) anyways… i’m making a new youtube video soon yaaaay!….
I tryed my hardest to stay strong through all of whats happened…I’m not alone..i have Hanan and…other people..but…my heart is alone…yeah that might not make sense to a lot of you..people..but it is…i feel like…my heart dropped into my stomach…i always wanted to love and be loved…but i cant seem to to love back..so many people love me…but i cant love back…brad loves me..but..i dont love him…i just cant seem to..i know i should..what would you do…if everything you once loved suddenly disappeared before my eyes…i’ve decided so many times i want to die but..i made that promise.. oh, that stupid promise…its one of those promises i knew i couldn’t keep when i made it…but..in the end we all end up alone… emotionly or literally…we end up alone…